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Delayed
03:24
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I owe various people $1250 on Friday
needless to say I'm not even close
renting out this room and I can't even sleep here
I didn't think this was how this story'd go
so I walked a block and sang to myself under the overpass
a bus driver looked at me and I just shook my head
oh it's times like these that I just gotta get the fuck outta here
but the car's not mine and anyways it's dead
see I don't want to get caught up in my own fairy tales
if there's a lesson here then I can't recall the line
oh my flight to New York City has been delayed
even though the plane's gonna take off on time
see I don't want to get caught up in my own fairy tales
if there's a lesson here then I can't recall the line
oh my flight to come and see you has been delayed
even though the plane's gonna take off on time
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2. |
Four Lines
03:29
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this blessed day I'll cross my I's and dot my T's
we both knew that this was coming
and it's just as bad as we thought it might be
I heard the wind before I ever felt the blow
I dug a hole near that gazebo
but I didn't know what to put in it though
I taped a note onto a wooden beam it read
to any living person reading this
I just wanted to take a moment and
tell you that something happened near to here
it isn't clear exactly what
even after what I've been told has been 10 years
and I just thought that perhaps you should know
I wish I had some more to say about it
but it's become very clear I don't
I wrote sincerely but left off my name
just in case the person reading
was looking for somebody to blame
and as I glided through the gate this time instead
the pavement pushed up something
I had written long ago and promptly ripped to shreads
just couldn't not hear Main Street's divine bells
and it's a joke how fucking meaningless
these four lines must seem to anybody else
just please paint me an abstract painting
just please sing to me lady in waiting
just please hold the whole entire world in your hands
just please hold my cold sweat drenched hand
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3. |
Again and Again
04:01
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how can you be happier without me?
it's 9 years later and I'm still 16 on the other end
outside of my house just leafless frozen trees
and over that mountain there's just more leafless frozen trees
again and again
and so on
I only wanna talk if you're as miserable as me
staring at a wall feeling somehow less then nothing
if I'm not the one you needed to save you
how can I be the savior that I need to think I was?
again and again
and so on
and morning comes
again unchanged
again undone
and I've got no clean clothes to wear
and I've got a letter in a drawer
with a tiny inch long tear
I couldn't bear to rip it more
these blinds make lines upon my feet
and for the 12th goddamn day this week
the sun has stopped producing heat
and these 4 blank walls they just stare at me
you couldn't wait one goddamn second
just for me to get back home
and so I crawled my way out here
like a cat crawls into an abandoned warehouse
and as these seasons change
amidst this coffee and dry toast
the weather beckons me to sense again
I think I miss smell the most
and now as winter and spring pass
I feel the frigid summer breeze
and all these changes in the weather
feel like changes that should be happening in me
how can you be happier without me?
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we are the chains themselves
held down by our own weight
holding love down to a chair
while a man in a mask floats away
and who are we to say wait?
we are the chains themselves
made of chains made of chains
to infinity until we rest on finite thoughts
until we try again
and again and so on
we are the chains themselves
laying still on the ground
noise from shattered panes still lingers
in a room where we both thought we'd found
an escape from sound
we are the chains themselves
but what the fuck's that mean?
she was wearing red when she
told me that there's so much that can't be seen
and let alone believed
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5. |
Glory Be
04:15
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this gum has been chewed
yes the flavor has been gone for days
I chomp and I suck
but the texture it just stays the same
my brain it is made out of stone
and it's skipping away
across a forgotten fountain
no one bothered to drain
oh great god
oh great tree
oh great you
oh great me
glory be
a torrential downpour
straight in to a new swimming pool
I tried to help with mouth to mouth
but I couldn't fined you
I've become less scared of the storms
even the ones outside
convinced that I could control weather
if only i'd try
oh thank god
willow trees
shading you
shading me
glory be
pressure to perform
is the only reason that I can't
I waited till just the right time
and then waited again
I pleaded
please just help me get the fuck out of my head
she said
if I haven't freed you yet I don't think I can
oh my god
falling trees
crushing you
crushing me
glory be
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6. |
Once There Was An I
03:04
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once there was an I
an I who still pined for you
and once there was an I
an I who knew
checked the mail coming through
like I usually do
oh but what I received that day
was anything but usual
and once there was an I
an I who still knew for sure
and once there was an I
an I that was yours
I opened up your note
and I read it over and over and over and over
and with my final words
he said "I'll always love you"
then he died, and he won't ever be alive again
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7. |
Playing Card Joker
03:53
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you left out the truth
between shots of Tennessee Whiskey
straight from the bottle
now your lipstick's smeared on everything
you drew a tattoo
on my shoulder with a marker
it was a playing card joker
it rubbed off onto your cheek by the next morning
I bought us a 6 pack
we each drank three and then
I laid down in the dirt
but you didn't really wanna get dirty with me
I was drinking Irish coffee
you were strung out and jealous and mean so I left
5 in the morning you call and I let you in
and I sang happy birthday
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8. |
The Final Song
01:43
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I've fallen in love
I mean I fell in love all those years ago
can't even count the ways you've changed my ways
oh how I love the way we are
I mean the way we were
seems I gotta take what I can take and let you go
but I will fight
I swore I'd fight till there was nothing left
now there's nothing left here at all
so I will march the final march down to our place
and I will sing the final song to no one
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9. |
After All
04:48
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lift up your eyes now please and keep them on me
I've got something good this time if you can believe
after all these songs
after all this rum
after all our pride
after all these lies
after all I've put you through
after all after all
lift up your eyes now please and keep them on me
I've got something good this time if you can believe
after all these songs
after all this rum
after all our pride
after all these lies
and with the sunroof open
and the rain pouring in
I gunned it straight past Charlotte
thinking what the fuck have I got left to lose?
and what I never learned to do
was to forget what I had learned
I’d rolled around in so much shit
and covered in it I met her
her favorite color’s yellow
and her favorite ice cream is
pistachio and that’s the point
where I realized that I’m in trouble
my body felt the same
except floating two inches off the ground
I knew her goosebumps told the truth
we stopped like time forever now
and standing there amidst the
falling leaves the dying trees
the warm breeze and the smell of weed
and all eternity she said to me
you’ll never never be alone
not while I’m here
not while I’m here dear
so
lift up your eyes now please and keep them on me
I've got something good this time if you can believe
after all these songs
after all this rum
after all our pride
after all these lies
after all I've put you through
after all after all
after you
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